I am supposed to start my journal few months ago, but hey I have been procrastinating. Maybe because I think that journaling will not help me. But some thought change and I will just give this a try anyway.
So what am I gonna share today? What do I feel? I woke up around 5am and went back to sleep. I dislike this because short sleep has higher chance of me having realistic traumatic dreams that I will wake up with a cry. it was exhausting
so all in all, I did have a cry dream. I dreamt of texting Nisa. it was so painful because she replied to me. I tried to hard to remember what I read but I cannot. but the sadness and disappointment is real. So when I woke up, I checked my whatsapp to see if she replies but unfortunately no. My chest hurt but I tried to ignore it and start my day.
Day started quite slow but another thing that take a toll on my emotion is some idiotic mistake I made while ordering an expensive sunglasses. I don't remember if I check properly if the prescription has been input or not. that cost me 300 euro. I received an email that I cannot change the prescription too. haihh, what a day.
Then was talking to Polos about it, when Nisa's conversation came out. I have been keeping this issue for myself for the past 3 months. finally they knew what I feel. it was heavy and still a river of tears come out. So tired, I wonder when can I say all this without even crying. Mcm mana nak move on eh?