Am I really upsetting people?

 People told me that I have upset many people, which maybe I admit it. But the truth is, I have to be the bad cop here cos people around me are dumb as fuck. 

The expect me to tell my parents what they did, but when I am upsetting them, I am to be blame. Like what the hell people, from now on, I will not involve in anyone problem anymore. You can go to jail, you can do dumb shit, and I will just fucking shut up. Live your live like how you want to live with. 

And what's your problem to be involved in my life? Connecting my fucking mom to my newly mother in law. And when I told them that I fucking pissed, suddenly give me some wisdom words from Allah swt. Just because you gave me His words, doesn't means you can have the pass to step over the boundaries in my life. And just because mom started to be nice with you, showers yourself with good treatments, means that you can tell me to be nice to mom too. 

You can be hypocrite as much as you want, but don't drag me into this. I like the way it is and I do not plan on changing it ever. 

So go fuck yourself.  

Farm animal?

Today I found out that my baby sister might be suicidal. 

We found few scratch scars on the arm. My heart immediately beat harder than it could. I could never imagine this would be one of my worries. I know that she's only 14 yo but I can imagine there's a lot of stuff on her plate. 

She's living with my dad at home, and things at home are rough. Dad kept on shouting when asking for her help, not sure why, maybe he has unresolved issues himself, but that shouldn't be any reason for him to treat her poorly. 

And here I am far far away to help her. I feel hopeless. I cannot give her any mental support that she needs. I can't bring her away from dad too. Tbh, my dad is not perfect. Most of the time I hate him too. He's selfish, he's boastful, he's proud, and he's not a good dad. One time, when I told him that he should give my sister more attention and love, he told us that his job is to "Just feed and give shelter to her". Like what the hell does that means? She's not a farm animal to feed and give shelter, then slaughter the animal. 

It anger me.